"Leena Marlina"

UNGU Concert :D

2010-05-04T14:44:00.000+08:00

The concert was super duper fun. & of course my darling Pasha is the handsome one among the bunch. LOL! Went with Sai Fyza & bf, Kak Vina & hubby, and Acit. Yes, I went with the ex 'cause he brought me to one of the Ungu small concert @ Expo, so it's my turn to treat him back. Fair & square, right? *wink2*
Well, that was my first going to a concert which I bought with my own money. Worth it, definitely. Can't wait for their next concert here, & of course to see that darling Pasha handsome face again. :D I even asked my uncle to buy their VCD Karaoke @ JB & now I can't get enough of them, haha!

In a day's time, it is Acit's 25th birthday.
In 3 days' time. it is TCC Sya's 22nd birthday.
In 10 days' time, it is Sai Fyza's 22nd birthday.
Then on 1st June, my Mom's 46th birthday.
So many birthdays to celebrate, presents to buy, money to waste (:D) & blah blah blah.
To the birthday babies that I've mention their names, please don't ask presents from me ok. LOL! Kidding' lah, I will try to celebrate your big days ok? :D

2010-03-01T13:04:00.000+08:00

At a certain point, taking action is better than endlessly pondering.

Now, maybe?

Long Forgotten.

2010-01-24T23:21:00.000+08:00

Okay, its been more than a month of not updating this dust-covered blog. So here I am, updating but I don't see the point of these post actually.

My life has been pretty smooth lately, with a going-to-be stable job (insyallah) and a great company of families & friends, not forgetting the boyfriend of course, I would say I'm living blissfully. Happy moments! :DD But, I still do get some shits out of my bliss life though.

Currently, I'm living in two houses. One in Woodlands, of course, and the other in Jurong. So on weekdays I'm at Jurong and weekends at Woodlands. The reason because its nearer to my workplace which is at Jurong Polyclinic. And also I don't need to wake up at freakin' 5am every working days. LOL ;) Well, I've not been hangin' out with my friends lately, so I guess we're gonna have a meetup pretty soon. Wild Wild Wet, right Dee? :D I MISS MY FRIENDS SO SO MUCH!!!

Anyway, the boyfriend have already made plans for the future. But I guess it is still too early to say anything so I'm just gonna shut my mouth. *hush hush* And for the ex, I'm trying my very best to really forget about his existence in my life. 'Cause now, I've realised that knowing him was the biggest mistake of my life and if I could turn back time, I wouldn't want to know him at all. But hopefully, I've learnt something from the mistakes that I've done.

Till then.

The scariest dream, EVER.

2009-12-20T11:29:00.000+08:00

I just had the most scariest dream earlier on.
The dream makes me wake up & start shivering all over.
I was thinking, "Oh my god! This can't be happening!", and I wanted to cry but I hold back my tears.
The dream, how should I describe it? It's scary & embarassing, thats it.

Straight away after waking up, I make a phone call. Just to calm myself down & not to think of negative thoughts.
I need to listen to the voice, telling me that its just a bad dream, and that someone won't be like the person in my dream.

I NEED TO HEAR THE VOICE.

FYZA's here! :)

2009-12-14T17:00:00.002+08:00

This blog is still under construction.
Sai Leen asked me to change her blogskin for FREE.
She's such a Hajah Bakhil!
Hmph!

2009-11-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

A QUICK UPDATE!

Sorry for the late update, kinda busy with stuff. First and foremost, I'm attached!! :))) Who's the guy? Name's Shahrazan. He's, a bit older than me, or rather, my circle of friends. But as what people say 'Age Doesn't Matter', right?

Actually, I only want to upload the makeover pics that me & Sai Fyza did with StudioPerfect. So, here's the pics & enjoy drooling ya! ;-)

2009-10-12T18:47:00.000+08:00

UPDATES!

Okay, I know I've not been updating since my last post 'cause I was rather busy with life. ;)
Trying to straighten out my life for a fulfilling future ahead, hope so.

So as y'all know, my contract with NTU has already ended. Had a really fun Raya celebrations with all the loved ones, but unfortunately, the fun was only on the 1st day. =(
Didn't really went out on the 2nd & 3rd day, Daddy was too tired from the driving.

After the contract ended, didn't really search for job straight away 'cause I was thinking of resting at home for a while. But then my aunt asked for my help, at her stall. Y'know, I had to wake up at 3am, just to help out at the stall. There was a time when it was raining & I didn't really wanna go to the stall, but had to drag my butt anyways. Alast, I fell asleep at the stall. Kekekeke! :) So, helped my aunt for 2 weeks only. Couldn't take the pressure anymore, if any of you know what I mean.

Last Friday, me & Dee surprised our dear Farna at her place. Met Dee at Causeway Point, bought all the things that we had plan on buying, but some was on the spot. Then Dee suggested that we took a cab, figured that the bus might take too much time. Arrived, we proceed to the staircase near her place, set everything, and we proceed to her door.Even though its an early mini celebration, but we do hope that its a memorable moment for you, Farna. =)

And so right now, just got back from the agency. Will start work on the 14th, that's this Wednesday, at Clementi Polyclinic. My job? Taking people's temperature, how cool is that. Hehehe! That's the fun part, but the not so fun part is, I have to be there at 7am sharp. My gosh, how the heck am I going to get my eyes & butt to wake up at 4 am every morning? May God help me & have mercy on me.

What else? Hmm, Deepavali is on this coming Saturday. No plans on going anywhere, just chilling at Grandma's place I guess.
So I guess, that's all, for now.
Happy Reading! =)

2009-09-06T00:32:00.004+08:00

15th day of puasa.

Just got back from shopping =) with Sai Fyza.
Bought quite alot of things that I've been eye-ing like, forever.
2 bags. 1 dress. 1 perfume. 1 bow hairband. 1 eyeshadow palette.
Total = $100+(!!!!)
This is what I call taking revenge, haha! After so long of not having the $$ to go shopping, today is the day.
The thing is, we actually shopped from Far East Plaza to Lucky Plaza to Bugis St.
Bugis St was actually not in our plan to shop but Sai Fyza suggested it when we were in the train bouncing from Marina Bay.
Aper lagi, aku pon ckp ON ahh. ;)))
Buka time, we ate at Ayam Penyet Ria.
Luckily we booked first, there was a really lonngggg queue outside nearing to Buka.
Had Gado-Gado with Soda Gembira. Yum Yum! :)

Yesterday, Buka-ing at Farna's place.
Me, Nira & Sya. Dee got to work night =(
The host cooked Spaghetti for us, yummy!
After that, headed to Geylang after Isyak.
Just window-shopped, didn't feel like buying anything except for dengdeng.
Actually, I wanted to buy this particular vintage bag but no new piece so, had to pass. =(
But nevermind, I've got it already just now at Bugis. Yeay! :))
And so after going around the Geylang Bazaar, stopover at Haig Rd to munch-munch a bit.
Around 12+am, reached home.
Thanks to Farna's dad for sending me home.

I think thats about it.
Too sleepy to think what else to blog about.
'Nite people.
=)

2009-09-01T16:08:00.002+08:00

11th day of puasa.

Sai Fyza is craving for McSpicy, after she did the McD quiz on Facebook. & me too, after she said it to me, but I want Big Mac :D

Today, I'm not feeling rather well. Sahur, lauk dah tak rase mcm lauk. Felt like I'm eating medicine on a plate. Yucks! Then when waking up for work, texted Sai Fyza that I don't feel well. She asked me to stay at home then afternoon come work, but after much thought, I decided to just go to work as usual. Hopefully I can make through Buka time.

The weather these few days really makes me wanna sleep through work time. But I find myself Facebook-ing and Youtube-ing often. Heh,mkn gaji buta ni namenyer ;)

TCC buka-ing at Farna's place is changed to 4th Sept, Friday. Nira already start working, at a dental clinic near her area. Sya, have to check her schedule 'cause she might be working on that day. Dee & me will rush down to Farna's, to make sure we arrived just in time for Buka.

see ya :D

2009-08-28T09:24:00.003+08:00

It's the 7th day of puasa, and I'm trying my best to stay sopan dan beradab. Everytime I have the urge to spit nonsense, I would say "ASTAGHFIRULLAH..." ;-)

As y'all know, I'm currently working as a temp staff at NTU Office of Admissions and Financial Aid. The contract was till end of August but extended to 18 Sept, Friday. The same as Sai Fyza.
The working environment? Friendly, warming, jokeable.
What's my position? Receptionist cum Customer Service Officer. LOL!
It didn't state on the contract lahh but I assumed that's what I'm working for.

Okay, cut to the chase.
On the 5th Sept, if the date's confirmed, TCC will be buka-ing at Farna's place. She'll be cooking Spaghetti for us and then maybe we'll be going to Geylang. Can't wait for that day, super excited :D
Then on the 12th Sept, FYZLEEN will be having her 1st ever makeover photoshoot with StudioFrost's StudioPerfect. Super (2x) excited :DD
We're having a little trouble with what clothes to bring, what shoes to wear etc. Sai Fyza is the most excited lahh, heheh! After that, we're gonna buka at Badoque, hopefully. Maybe before that we'll be mini-shopping a while, Bugis or Tampines Mall.

This Sunday gonna follow my parents to Simpang Renggam, collect the kuih-kuih there. And I'm NOT looking forward to the journey 'cause it takes around 2-3hrs to reach there. Tak suker tau i, lagik ni tgh puase skrg. Urgh!

Ok lahh, thats for now.
Gonna do serious work now. (mcm betol jek aku ni)

Selamat berpuasa kengkawan =)

2009-08-24T09:38:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN

DENGAN PENUH KEBERKATAN =)

2009-08-16T21:53:00.002+08:00

Let me start off by saying thank you so(3x) much to my 2 lovely ladies, Dearest Sai Fyza & Yati. I won't forget what you guys did for my 21st, EVER. (Bear with me 'cause its gonna be a longggg post.)

[15.08.09]
It was my 2nd surprise belated birthday celebration. Sai Fyza texted, meetup 2pm at HarbourFront Stn. At first, I thought that we're going together but actually, no. She said that she need to go somewhere else. So, went to the designated place, alone. Reached, called up Yati. She asked me to wait near Cheers, so I waited. 15 minutes or so, she arrived. I have to say this, IT WAS THE 1ST EVER TO SAW YATI WEARING DRESS WITH ME & I'M IMPRESSED ;) And, waited for Sai Fyza.

When she approached us, I saw that she was carrying this big plastic bag with a box inside. So my guess is, definitely that's my birthday cake. Hahah! BUT, little did I know that they were gonna blindfold me all the way to my surprise. Gosh, I totally didn't see that coming. They blindfold me with this bold red hairband & people started to see us as if I was the kidnapped kid & they were the bad 'guys'. And I think I pissed them a little by chanting ,'I am so embarassed right now'.

Throughout the ordeal, my head was spinning 'cause I haven't eaten & some more, I felt like they were going in rounds. I had to cling on to them. So, the journey was like a maze to me, and about 20 mins or so, we were in the lift. How did I know? Someone was saying about going up to the 15th floor and I heard, 'Ding!'. Then I heard a guy, probably an Indian, asking whether it's my birthday 'cause he was curious on why was I blindfolded. The girls yes-ed & he actually played along! Saying something like, gonna reached London & there's a horse something-something.

15th floor, heard sounds but couldn't figure out what was it. Yati was saying, 'We're gonna reach soon enough'. Then she asked to lift my feet higher a bit, and to settle down. Once Yati took off the hairband, OHMYGOODNESS!! We're actually riding on the cable car! I couldn't even move, yet looking down at the scenery. I was like, speechless. Couldn't say or do anything. And then Sai Fyza present my birthday cake, and I was able to relax a bit, hehe!

To have a ride on the cable car was actually my 2009 wishlist, and I so did not expect Sai Fyza to even remember it. Ok, cut to the chase, went to Sentosa, sight-seeing, cam-whoring here & there. Oh, I get to hold a snake for FREE! Tell you, the snake was slimy & heavy, like it's trying to choke me. Then we went to Mount Faber & the scenery was ohsobeautiful. I wish I have a house uphill. &&, we were so in loveee with the toilet. I don't know how to explain the toilet but it was so extravagant, like u can have a drink or two with your friends there & chat.

I guess we were in the toilet for almost an hour, couldn't leave the place. Then, headed to HarbourFront & went to fill our empty stomachs at Fig & Olive. I ordered a pasta & chicken dish, which was really huge, & I couldn't finished it. After that, waited for Wan & friend and we hangout till late there. Actually, Wan wanted to watch a movie but we couldn't get any movie that started early and so we jalan-jalan around Vivocity. Around 11pm, took cab home with Sai Fyza & Wan & friend.

I was still excited when I reached home. I mean, I don't want the night to go away. I still wanna go out & have fun till I'm crazily tired. Nevertheless, I had soo much fun! =)

**

I'm starting work on Tues, at NTU. Working alongside Sai Fyza, as a Financial Asst. But only for a month, I think. Let see if they wanna extend the contract longer. And, I have to head down to the agency at Parklane Mall tmr, 3pm. So, I shall bid you guys bye-bye, for today.

;)

2009-08-12T14:41:00.006+08:00

I seriously can't wait for this coming Saturday.
Sai Fyza & Yati has arranged a surprise(!) belated birthday celebration.
Theme? Green & White.
I asked, begged them to give me at least a teeny weeny bit of clue but they stubbornly neglected my request. Until 1 day, Sai Fyza texted me with this, "The clue is: S" (?)
No use raking my brain for the clue, won't do me good anyways.

Last Sunday, the family went for a picnic @ ECP.
The plan was to watch the fireworks but all we got is a helicopter with the huge S'pore flag.
East Coast was packed with people, luckily we got there early otherwise, we might just picnic at the carpark. LOL! :)
Played Monopoly, Uno, cycled etc.
We left at around 8.30pm & headed to Bedok North St 3 for supper.
Had Black Pepper Beef with Rice, yummy.
Around 10pm, home sweet home.
Hopefully, there will be more family picnics later on.
=)

2009-08-04T22:16:00.005+08:00

2009-07-27T21:53:00.003+08:00

My aunt bought me 2 tops from Hurs, besides the Nokia E63. I love it! :)

On 15th August, Sai Fyza & Yati booked me for my surprise belated birthday celebration.
As for the family, kinda disappointed that there's no whisper or whatsoever of them wanting to celebrate my 21st birthday. Maybe its hush-hush, who knows right.
TCC? I have no idea.

What am I gonna wish for? The will to stand up for myself.
So that I am able to defeat my fears in order to prove to myself that I am not a useless brat.
I will not let anyone to step onto my head or put shit onto my face, whatever.
Someone told me that I need to stand up for myself if I want to be treated the right way. I would be thanking him later.

=)

2009-07-20T16:07:00.003+08:00

Another interview tmr, 9am.
I wonder whether I'll be able to get my glued-on eyes to pry open or not.
It was Recruit Express, for Patient Service Clerk position.
He briefly told me about the job, I'll be under 3 months probation where the pay will be $6/hr.
That is, IF I get the job.

Gosh, it's already going to be end of July. And I am still jobless.
:(

2009-07-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

Happy 4th Birthday my beloved nephew,
KHAILANI ADAM!

May you will forever be the handsome 'Daniel Wu' & always be the one to brighten up our days.
ILYB :)))

2009-07-15T21:47:00.003+08:00

The interview went well.
I was quite surprised by the size of the office actually.
It's sort of like, a 3-room flat. Only 2 rooms, a pantry and "living room".
And guess how many people work there? Just 4 people.
Ok, I was kinda lost when I reached there. The taxi driver alighted me at Pantech 21 building but I was supposed to go to Pantech Industrial Complex.
So I called the office for directions to go there, and voila, it was just behind the Pantech 21 building. =_=
Reached the building, took the elevator, reached the storey and I got lost again.
I mean the place is like a maze, you know. Hidden corners everywhere.
Eventually, i reached the office. Thank goodness!
I was greeted by this Malay girl whose eating her Crunchy, barefoot. Then she passed me on to this Chinese (I think) guy who looks like a student from the way he dresses, who then handed me the application form.
Around 5 minutes after that, the supervisor (I think) called me to her room.
At that time I felt like I wanted to just lift my legs and run home, seriously. I have never like interviews 'cause it gives me headaches on what kind of questions they're gonna ask and whether I'm able to answer it or be dumb.
Ok, back to the supervisor room. I sat down, and she started asking me questions about my life.
But overall, the interview seems sort of relaxing to me 'cause there is minimal tension between me and her. We talked like as if we were friends, you know.
Unlike all the previous interviews I went, this is the first time I felt relaxed. She also asked for my photocopied certs and photo, which is also the first time someone wants to follow-up on me.
Anyway, I do really really hope I get the job.
God help me with this.

2009-07-14T15:49:00.003+08:00

I got a call this morning, from Cobee Trading Co.
Told me that they have received my resume, wanted to interview me tmr at 4pm.
I don't get it, why must interviews be held in the afternoon? I thought it supposed to start in the morning.
Anyway, better prepare myself for the interview.
God knows whether I'll get it, or not.
Pray for me people =)

2009-07-12T23:08:00.005+08:00

As you can see, I've changed the skin.
Thought that it would be eye-relieving to have a skin that's brighter than the previous. And simple too.
Why I chose this? 'Cause there's YELLOW. =)
Don't ask me why but yellow is my second favourite colour.

Updates on myself.
Firstly, I am still job-less. No calls, no interviews & whatsoever.
Getting fed-up? Yes indeed.
However, i just sent out my resume to 4 companies only.
Majority of the companies desperately want temporary staffs, I don't know why.
Seriously, why temporary? *a big question mark on my forehead*
Enough said, just pray for me so that I can get a decent job soon, alright guys? =)

Let see, Khailani Adam's 2nd birthday is coming, 16th July.
I'm thinking of what gifts to buy for him.
Clothes? Toys? Educational books? ... Erm, suggestions?
And after his birthday ....... IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! YIPPEE!!!!!
Can't stop being enthusiastic over the days that goes by nearing to my birth-date, LOL.
Since my friends & relatives read my blog, I shall give them my "Dying For" list =))
BUT, sadly I myself don't even know what I truly want =(((
Maybe, gatherings or girls day/night out would do. OR shall I say, LET'S BOWL? *hint*
Well, I still have 16 more days to my birthday so I'll definitely make use of the days to think really hard on what I shall put on my "Dying For" list.
And as for now, I shall log off to laze around on the sofa & channel-surf.
'Night.

Love,
Leena =)

2009-06-19T22:53:00.006+08:00

FINALLY!! I get to update. =)

Well, I'm still looking for jobs, and I'm getting fed-up going to several interviews but no calls from them. Can I just work from home? Bake cookies, maybe.

Tmr, I'm going to Nilai 3 with the family. Right now, I'm sleeping over at my aunt's hse 'cause have to wake up freaking 5 in the morning. Mom wants to buy cookies, curtains, cushion covers & whatnots.

Toodles!

2009-06-04T16:17:00.003+08:00

YES!
I get to enjoy the June holidays like any kids. Sweet, indeed. =)

NO!
I'm out of job from tmr onwards till 26th June BUT I am not guaranteed of coming back to TGPS to continue my contract. As what my in-charge told me, she will call me on the last day of holiday to tell me whether I'm still needed here.
Heck, no shopping for this month liao! =_=

In the meantime, I'm looking for permanent jobs. Been emailing resumes since I was summoned to my in-charge. Mostly, I applied for heathcare services. Don't ask me why, but somehow having a Multimedia Technology cert doesn't make me a happy person, in fact a lost one.

I mean, its not that I've not learnt anything throughout my 2-years in ITE but learning about IT just makes my head throbbed. Let me remind you, it was my father's words that I should take up the course, for the future he said. But I wanted Office Skills, really. To tell you the truth, I don't see myself as an IT person.

Let's face it, I'm jobless. Turning 21 soon but doesn't have any goals or vision for the future. I live by day-by-day basis. Doesn't know what I wanna become, a freelancer indeed? How about I start a business? DREAM ON, MARLINA! I need to re-schedule my life, so that i can be capable of providing for myself with no one's help.

Ok, I'm talking shit here. Better stop here and start to think for MY future.
Pray for me that I get a job soon.
Take cares.

2009-06-02T15:57:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was my mom's 45th birthday.
took leave 'cause my mom went to the hosp the day before, problems at the womb area. so need to take care of her.
and amazingly, my dad took leave too = {

& so, to "celebrate" her birthday, we go rounding-rounding.
had lunch @ Golden Shoe, was a bit shocked to find out that we're having lunch there, just beside my previous workplace(OCBC).
had Crisp Mayo Chicken Rice, superb.
done, headed to the Flyer where my mom stubbornly did not wanna ride it.
i was eager to ride for the 2nd time but my mom's behaviour spoiled the eagerness thus only my dad & baby bro took a go for the Flyer.
while i was walking around to calm myself down, my mom was happily munching on mashed potato(!) @ Popeyes. =_=
i sat down, waiting the 30-mins ride to finish.
after that, proceed to my aunt's stall.
actually we wanted to singgah my aunt's place but got to know that the whole family's down with fever.
&&, the doc suspected that Yana's infected with H1N1 flu. (!!!)
but since she never step out of S'pore, so the doc only gave her medications. supposedly, he is to call 993 but don't know lah.
headed home, showered.
watched The Ultimatum, Desperate Housewifes & ANTM finale. (Yeay, McKey won!)
dozed off soon after with the head throbbing like madness & the weather that seems to never cool down.

till i update again, take cares.
:)

2009-05-28T08:36:00.002+08:00

Horoscope Overview:

You experience a burst of great energy that should help you achieve almost anything close to your heart. A new love, a big win in business or even a quiet reconciliation are all possible.
People love people who can make them feel good about themselves, and right now you're able to put smiles on faces without even trying -- so get ready to see your popularity skyrocket! Let your warmth guide you in any situation today, and give people supportive feedback that makes them embrace their differences. By reaching out and spreading so much positive energy, you will be earning a ton of good karma in return.

**

A new love?
A big win in business? What business?
A quiet reconciliation?

WHICH ONE IS IT?

2009-05-22T13:52:00.003+08:00

i have nothing to blog about, hence no updates.
been rather busy with work, and catching up on my "beauty sleep".
nyahahah!

am sleeping over my aunt's place @ Boon Lay.
been a while i've not met Pebble and Bam Bam. >_<
and perhaps, going to Arab St tomorrow. the 1st aunt wanna buy kain for my 2nd aunt, heard of.

yesterday, went to Science Centre for the 2nd time for Learning Journey (P2).
had the freedom of wandering around by myself, snapping pictures.
&&, was fascinated by a chicken egg, hatching.
it was really, should i say, exciting to watch.
it took about 10-15 mins to totally hatch, and i was behaving like a primary sch kid, what with me jumping of joy when the chick was out of the egg.
yeah, i know. childish me, right? =)
then, i went over to the "The Human Body" exhibit.
the 1st thing i saw? A REAL HUMAN BRAIN.
stated that the brain actually only weighs around 1kg and tastes like a soft cheese.
Yucks!100x
did someone really taste that brain? i mean, who on earth would wanna have a taste of a dead, human brain? not me, definitely.
whatever it is, gross is the word.

so that's it, my update for this week.
won't be updating so soon okay.
but feel free to read through my posts again & again & again ......
sayonara! ;)

2009-05-18T10:06:00.004+08:00

Sya's 21st ~ 09.05.09

Fyza's 21st ~ 16.05.09

2009-05-14T09:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday!

Nessa Liana

Sai Fyza

2009-05-07T10:20:00.003+08:00

about my recent post of MOTHER'S DAY, i am deeply hurt with my mom's actions.
so it is up to you people to judge me or think negatively of me, whatever.
Yes, she's the one that carries me for 9 months, fed me, taught me to be the person that i am right now BUT i simply DO NOT feel that she showers me with TLC.
i don't need you people to understand or start thinking "WHY/WHAT" whatsoever.
celebration? I DO NOT KNOW.

*****

i simply do not understand what the fcuking hell has been going on with my friends lately.
WHAT'S UP WITH YOU PEOPLE??
if you do have any problems, its not that hard to take out your phone & start clicking/texting your CLOSE friends.
WHY do we need to come forward and ask you "WHAT'S WRONG"?
i guess there's no point in arguing 'cause i just feel that TCC is breaking apart, already.

i do not wanna cloud my mind with all the shits that's happening around me.
you're not satisfied with something, OPEN YOUR MOUTH & SAY IT OUT.
you wanna remove yourself from the group? FINE, BY ALL MEANS.
you wanna start badmouthing us 'cause of our lame & childish behaviour, BETTER DO IT.
please, i don't wanna see/hear any CATFIGHTS 'cause WE ARE TURNING 21 ALREADY.
you should know better on how to handle "problems".

*****

IF YOU THINK THAT WHAT I'VE BLOGGED ABOVE IS SUPER RUBBISH, COME EYE TO EYE WITH ME.
TCC~THERE WILL BE NO MORE GATHERINGS IN THE NEAR FUTURE. MY BIGGEST & SINCERE APOLOGIES TO YOU BABES. WHATEVER IT IS, I STILL LOVE EACH & EVERY ONE OF YOU GIRLS. PEACE.

2009-05-05T10:04:00.007+08:00

nothing to do, so i browse the SPI website.
despite having 11 hrs of sleep, i still am sleepy.
and i'm feeling the urge of tiptoe-ing to the lounge rm and take a quick nap.

yesterday, had nothing better to do and so i googled "How To Get Over A Break-Up".
there's 2 or 3 articles that i've read through and i thought maybe it could help me, immediately send to print.
i have to confess that i have tried and tried to forget him, hate him, do everything just not to think about him but i simply can't.
what's more, today is his birthday.
however, with the help of those articles and my friends, i am sure that i can get over him fast.
insya allah...

**

AHGEORGE
Sai Fyza's beloved cat has passed away on Monday, 4th May '09.
he had undergone surgery to remove calculus stone from his bladder but unfortunately, he was too weak to make it through.
no more meow-ing. no more aaying-ing. NO MORE AHGEORGE.
truly, i was shocked to get that msg from her.
"Ahgeorge dah tkde..."
i can feel what she's going through right now, be strong k Sai? :)
some of you might think that Ahgeorge is just a cat, what's the use of mourning a cat for, right? WRONG.
Ahgeorge is not just a cat, a pet. HE IS FAMILY.
no matter what, i would miss hearing my dear Sai Fyza calling him aayiingg...
REST IN PEACE, AHGEORGE.

**

upcoming birthday(s): Sya, Sai Fyza & Liana's 21st.
i shall not post anything related to their birthday plans 'cause that is just too damn stupid.
but not to worry babes, we do have something planned for the both of you. =))

Sai Fyza's birthday?
we: Lin + Yati is planning to celebrate on the 16th May, Saturday.
here are the details girls.

THEME: RED + BLACK
DEVILISH WITH GLAM SPRINKLED.
VENUE: TOWN AREA (SO MAKE SURE YOU DRESS UP AS
IF YOU HAVE NEVER DRESS UP, KEKEKE!)
TIME: 2.00PM (MEETING AREA WILL BE
ANNOUNCE SOON)
DO'S: LADYLIKE. MAKE-UP. HEELS IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.
DONT'S: NO JEANS, NO SNEAKERS, NO SANDALS WHATSOEVER.
PLS DO TAKE NOTE
YA :))

**

11th May is OFF DAY, yeay!
have make plans of meeting up the Van peeps; Wan BIGGuy, Yatster & Yoda.
Yat is working till 4pm so most probably i'll meet the guys @ Tamp Interchange, go survey things at Century Sq or maybe the new mall, Tampines 1 eh?
after that, around 3pm proceed to Beer Garden till 8pm, 'cause the next day working ya.

**

Mother's Day.
seriously, i have no plans to celebrate it.
why? 'cause my mom is getting on my nerves each and every day.
i know i sound harsh and unappreciative but whatever.
you have to live with me for 1 month then you will know how annoying my mom is.
but if my cousins planned on celebrating, by all means.
i will participate but sorry mom, no gifts this year.
perhaps when you show me that i atleast do exist a lil' bit in your heart & that it came across your mind that I AM NOT YOUR BABYBOY, BUT YOUR BABYGIRL MOM...
all this time i've been trying my hardest to make you happy, to make you feel satisfied, to make you look as if you are not being left aside, but you never notice.
frankly speaking, i am deeply hurt by your actions to me mom.
call me unappreciated, rude, selfish whatever. but enough is enough, i'm sorry.
i'm done tolerating you, mom.

2009-04-30T08:50:00.004+08:00

Why Do I Always End Up Falling For The Same Type Of Loser Guy?
Are there some eerie similarities between your ex-boyfriends and the guys you're attracted to now? If it never worked out with your exes, then it's time to date a different type. Here's how:

* Get introduced to guys from different circles. Hang out with friends who work in different industries so you can get to know their colleagues and associates as well.

* Sit down and make a list of the similarities between your men. Then, make a conscious effort to date a man who's really different. Exes were all Liverpool fans? Go for a guy who hates soccer.

* Tell your friends to keep you away from the brooding bastards you're always chatting up in clubs. In fact, give them permission to introduce you to the sort that you've never been out with.

2009-04-29T19:56:00.003+08:00

Once again, i am confused.
i do not know what's going on in my life.
deceived by them? perhaps.

let me put down all the questions here.
1. am i really an irritating & annoying bastard?
2. do i always give in everytime there is an argument?
3. am i ignorant, naive and blunt?
4. do i look like i do not know how to take care of myself or my loved ones?
5. am i weak?
6. why am i always the one to get shit on my face from those i loved and cared?
7. what did i do wrong to deserve such things/acts?
8. why can't you just leave me alone to be who i am supposed to be?
9. am i that stone-hearted or just simply stupid?
10. do i deserved to be treated the right way?

at this moment, i am simply too tired to think of anything good about my life.
all i get is bad things.
till next time.

2009-04-29T13:38:00.002+08:00

A. U and I
B. SHE and I

He asked me to choose one.
.........

2009-04-23T10:58:00.004+08:00

lately i've been pretty busy, thus no time to update or whatsoever.
and i still need more rest, body aches everywhere.
to Nana darl, yes i am soo over it =))
.
.
.
recently, there is this guy named Din from Tagged, added me.
sent me a message saying that i looked familiar, that's his pickup line.
and so i replied, exchange num, yada yada.
we kept sms-ing, without fail. from HIS side, not mine..
on the 4th day, he "propose" to me saying he wants me to be his gf.
surely you will be quite surprised right, if some guy msged that?
i told him, "aik, blom jumpe blom ape, da nk matair? asl kelam kabut ni?"
and do you know what was his reply?
"takde ah, i nak ade matair sblom masok NS this July.."
WTF.
that is a very tak masok akal reason sia..
just 'cause you're going NS you want to have gf asap?
i mean, just pick ANY kind of girl to be your gf?
its just silly you know, your actions and everything.
and the proposal dragged on till the 8th day, i think, where we met.
i will not describe the meetup 'cause he is super fcukin lame to the core, with a capital L.
whoever speaks with his hands covering his bloody mouth??
as if he's keepping diamonds in it and too afraid i might notice.
gaknye taik gigi bnyk sngt sbb tu cover mulot mcm nak rak sak..
so the next day after the meetup, cont'd sms-ing.
i was very very the M.A.L.A.S. already to entertain him right to the very moment when he brought up about the proposal.
SILLY LAME SILLY LAME SILLY LAME SILLY LAME SILLY LAME and right now, i am too lazy to think back what happened the day after 'cause he really got on my nerves.
it comes to the point where i had to put his num under my REJECT LIST.
MOHD TAJUDDIN, GROW UP LAHH!!

i am super excited for this coming Sat, the pit@ECP.
can't wait to meet the guys & girls of 04/05 =))

2009-04-19T19:52:00.005+08:00

i was super busy last week.
so i will just make this post a brief one.

15th & 16th April
woke up at 5am, had to be in school by 6.45am
went for Rope Skipping competition @ Jurong East Sports Complex.
i was expecting like a 3-hrs event or so but turns out, 1 whole day event. =|
had to juggle between videotaping the "Skipperz" and babysitting the others.
but overall, it was exciting.

the event brought me back to my pri sch years.
i joined a skipping competition but that was only inter-class.
in this millenium, they have inter-school sia ..
got trophy some more ..
how cool is that?
*i won 3rd place @ Boon Lay Pri but all i got was a piece of certificate or something ...

back to the event.
they have so many events such as synchronize, speed, double-dutch/double-under, relay, individual and pairing etc.
i was really impressed with the Skipperz, they have 2 1st placing. =)
not to forget, all of them were darn cute >_<

17th April
Sports Day.
at first, i thought that i wasn't required to attend the event since no one said anything to me.
but my mentor looked me up and needed me to attend the event just to "help out".
but unfortunately, i was assigned as track judge(s) and was required to stand under the burning hot sun and timed them.
right now, my face is partially sunburned.

the event ends at 12+pm but it didn't stop there.
i had to go back to school and finish up some work.
sat down, my head was practically doing banging music.
but luckily i get to go off at 3pm since i signed in at 7am minus lunch hr.
i tell you, i still need more sleeping time.

that's it.
will update NOT so soon.
=)

2009-04-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

What a feast!
i was so full that i dozed off on the sofa, haha.
had a mini celebration at my grandma's place.
my baby bro and dad's birthday.
supposedly, we were to wear red/brown today but because some of them find that its pretty leceh, wear what you want lor. grrr, susah2 aku pikirkan kaler tau.

we had tulang, ikan and sotong bakar, ketam lemak cili padi, dadih etc.
yours truly volunteered to bakar ikan dgn sotong, atlast give up halfway.
cannot take it sia, my arms nearly flung out. LOL =)
i had so many trips of makan session, till i feel bloated uptil now.
forgot to bring cam, so have no pics.
then tmr, breakfast at Mr Teh Tarik @ Jurong West St 41.
at 9am, my goodness!
bole bgn ke aku nie? ish, leceh sak ...

till here, update soon.
nytes ppl!
=)

2009-04-08T21:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL AIMAN!
=)

i know, i have not been a good big sister to you but what matters most is i still love you to bits k.
but pls, don't be too mischievous and naughty towards mummy k?
don't give her a hard time can?
you're still my baby brother, and akak syg adek tau.
*muacks!

yay, my bag has arrived!
i'm so loving it already, heheh.
actually i'm super duper exhausted.
so i shall stop here, and bid goodbye.

*good nytes! =)

2009-04-07T15:23:00.003+08:00

oh wow.
exactly 1 hour later, he called me.
like he could sense that i was blogging about him.
and the very silly me answered without looking at the caller.
'cause yours truly forgotten to switch to vibrate mode.
and the staff room can hear Britney singing to Let Me Be.
shucks.

why he called?
to know whether my anger has simmered or not. (!!)
KMAYDFJ.
told him, what for? NO USE ANYWAY.
then he start blabbering about where to d/l songs yada yada.
i simply said, "I've got work to do. BYE." TOOT.
well, he's probably mad and don't wanna contact anymore.
thats even better.

Dear Acit,

just FUCK OFF.

Love, Lina.

2009-04-07T14:17:00.002+08:00

i really had great fun on Sunday.
but, it turns out otherwise.
that "accidental encounter" was really shocking.
really, i couldn't find the exact word to describe what i felt that instance.
the moment i saw the familiar colour, and the rider. and the female pillion.
i kept telling myself that's not you.
but unfortunately, it is you.
i purposely slowed down so that you would notice me, and you did.
your expression totally change from a smiling, happy face to a ohmygodshecaughtmeredhanded face.
i think, ALLAH is trying to tell me that its time that i let you go.
from my mind, heart and soul. completely.
and i'm glad to say that i have done the very first step, delete everything about you in my hp, even your num.
just so you know, i broke down right after you passed by.
I CRIED ONLY BECAUSE I FELT SO BLOODY FUCKING DAMN STUPID TO EVEN HAVE THE CHEEK OF GETTING BACK WITH YOU, TO START AFRESH.
but don't worry, i will still keep Rhino with me.dialah penawar rindu aku skrg
i wish you good luck on your divorce process and enjoy life till you're fucking tired to death.

Whatever you give a woman, she'll make greater.
If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.
She multiplies what is given to her.

If you give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit!

2009-04-06T11:01:00.028+08:00

5th April '09
TCC Gathering cum Dee's 21st advanced birthday.
we were all dressed up, ready to have great fun.
we set up the place, decorate it & then comes the birthday girl.
well, Neera can't make it. mate tembel, bnyk tgk blue ah tu =)

ok, here's the plan.
meet up with the girls at 12.30pm @ Sembawang Stn.
it was raining madness.
what with us all wearing dresses, getting wet & some more going to Cuppage-Cash Studio.
was super cold but then the a/c died halfway through the singing.
i was super hot until my armpit sweats, cb.

i can't forget the "preparation process".
all was so kan-chiong to the max.
especially Nessa, heh.
i guess she was really all hyped up to really make it a BIG surprise for Dee.
we were "assigned" duties.
Asya-decorate the card
Nana-erm, what were u supposed to do eh?
Nessa-blow balloons
Yours Truly-help out whenever they need help.

i'll just let the pictures do the talking.
so leceh want to type long2 post.
in random order hor =)

Happy advanced 21st b'day DEE! =))

2009-04-02T13:20:00.003+08:00

well, one more day.
and then comes the weekend.
Yippee!

probably going JB on Sat, hantar kain buat baju rayer.
Sun? no plan liao.
am looking forward for the WRSS bbq gathering on 25th apr.
can't wait to see them all =)

this month, i have 3 birthdays.
8th Apr - Aiman's 7th
11th Apr - Dee's 21st
16th Apr - Dad's 52nd

for aiman's and dad's, the family will be celebrating on Good Friday.
since its a public holiday, all the family members will be there.
including my grandma.
perhaps, going over to JB to have a feast?
i have to think of a colour theme for the occasion.
let say, green?
or maybe brown?
or green AND brown =)
that's pretty interesting huh, all the ladies will be in brown whereas the man, in green.
see, how the genius i am!
hahahahahahaha!

shopping-wise, i have "reserved" several items from blogshops.
a Chanel inspired bag, a really-verycheap-already kimono top, a handmade 3in1 headband.
will be transferring the cash on payday itself.
wee~can't wait for the items to be on hand.

as of now, i shall stop here.
have to pee, been tahan-ing since 12pm.
takecare ppl =)

P.S i shudn't say this but i miss MR TALL and CICAK at the same time =(

2009-03-31T09:22:00.002+08:00

met up with Sai Fyza yesterday.
to "discuss" the P3 maths worksheet.
ok, i admit that i am reallyy veryy weak in maths.
since pri sch k.
and later, have to teach maths supp class (!!)
thats the why i had to "discuss" with Sai Fyza, heh.

can't wait for this coming Sunday =)
even though it means that i had to loan from my mom a few bucks.
buat malu jek aku ni ...

oh, do you ever experienced a situation whereby when a particular person called you up, like he/she didn't contact with you for quite a while, and says that he/she FORGOT about your existence in his/her life?
bull the shit k.
there is no such reason as "i sebok ngn keje ah, abeh ade skola agik..."
?!?!
don't tell me that when you're working, you don't even have a break time? KMA.
doesn't mean that you ring me up last Friday makes me think that i mean atleast a thing in your life, NO.

guys, are so egoistic.
when will they ever let go of that ego for even a sec?
PLEASE LAH EH !

Nana - whats the title & singer of your blog song? sedap ah, buat aku goyang pinggang jap kat ofis ni =)
Sai Fyza - tkya nak letak that post eh. cam aku menghilang for setahun gitu. bluek! =)

*this lappy is soo gonna end up on the floor later on.

2009-03-30T11:57:00.002+08:00

i am damn fucking pissed right now.
lappy is making me go mad crazy.
every time i open a Window, it close by itself.
knn ccb!

2009-03-27T15:31:00.002+08:00

i'm thinking whether to attend the seminar tmr.
or not.
since no calls from MOE, i don't think there's a need for me to go, right?

today, i'm slightly busy.
many things to do, to finish up.
arrived work, tons of work waiting for me.
name writing, paper cutting, compo writing, relief supp class etc.
just this minute i get my own free time.
fuhh!
got a box of chocs from 1 of the teachers, for being helpful.
not any kind of chocs eh, seashells belgian chocs tau.
*i'm loving it! =)

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ok, this may take a while for me to compose.
'cause i'm trying to find the right words and sentence so that you people can understand what the hell i'm trying to say.
these few weeks/days, i've been very emotionally-pained and down-to-sorrows.
the reason, i shall just keep it to myself.
but one thing's for sure, i'm very in need of medical help.(!!)
at any point of time, i could just breakdown and cry my heart out.
yes, i went to work as per normal.
but certain times i would suddenly be really sad, and i mean realllyyy.
i would frequently excuse myself to the ladies, just to cry my heart out.
how about at home, you may ask?
i took a quick shower and locked myself in my room.
every single day.
when my mom or whoever knocks on my door, i would just dismiss them rudely.
this, continues up till right now.
yeah, maybe i should seek medical help.
in a week or two, perhaps.
hope you people understand what i'm going through.

i seriously need help.

2009-03-26T16:47:00.001+08:00

I WANT THIS FOR MY BIRTHDAY
=)

2009-03-25T10:27:00.003+08:00

no calls from MOE.
i'm pretty sure that i don't stand a chance to get that position that i've applied for.
well, a good try anyway ...
.
.
.
.

today, i'm feeling rather mellow.
due to some personal issues pertaining yesterday's date.
i'm sorry but let me wallow in my sadness, that does make me feel that i do exist in this world full of betrayal.
perhaps what my horoscope describe me is absolutely correct, forgiving but NEVER forgets.
its hard for me to let go, all those past memories i had, be it good or bad.
is this what i get for being nice and caring to everyone around me?
what do you describe that, punishment?
what must i do to get me wake the bloody hell up from all this crapshit and letting go of my bottled sorrows?
i'm sorry for all those kind souls that have been advicing me and giving me the strength to smile, i do appreciate alot.
but its me who doesn't want to go on with the beauty of life, who doesn't want to
accept the facts, and who felt as if i don't mean a single damn thing to the world.
WHY AM I DOING THIS? A PUNISHMENT, FROM ME TO ME.

This is what i get for making all the wrong choices and yet still doesn't learnt.
This is what i get for denying the facts and yet turn-twisting it.
This is what i get for caring too much.

It hurts, so badly.

2009-03-24T11:47:00.002+08:00

women cycle started today.
no wonder i was cranky with every human near me.
just got my laptop yesterday =)
now i can do my own stuff at my cubicle with privacy.
heheh!

work, was pretty okay.
not too busy, not too free.
have to attend the seminar this saturday, alone.
so the boring, if only i could bring company.
starts at 1.30pm, god knows what time it will end.

sorry for the previous post.
was emotionally down that day.
i have issues with my emotions.
and definitely, i have to seek help.
!!!

will update later.
going for lunch.
=)

2009-03-22T21:47:00.002+08:00

i feel like everything's changing.
my surroundings changing.
my family's changing.
my friends also changing.
my 2 guys changing too.

E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.I.S.C.H.A.N.G.I.N.G.

i feel so pressurized deep inside.
tears wanna flow but i kept myself from crying.
what is the matter actually?
it's about me.

*found out that i'm suffering from depression ...

2009-03-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

just got a phonecall from Sai Fyza.
she passed with flying colours.
congrats Sai =)
alhamdullillah...

last night, the whole family was sneezing away.
remembering back, it was funny though.
after dad sneezed, it's me, followed by mom etc.
kinda like a sneezing sing-along, haha!
ok ok, cut the crap.
took aiman's medicine, went straight to bed.
what i've noticed, i've been sleeping in the same position.(!)
ok, whoever that had slept with me, knows too well that i'm not the type of person that sleeps in one direction or position throughout the sleep process.
really, i'm serious!
even my cousin tak tahan nak tido ngn aku, ahaks!
so that's why my back is aching like mad.

canteen's closed.
so lunch would be a hassle, to me.
gonna go nearby mart, buy some cup noodles.
then maybe, reading time?
not so much work to do anyways.
you know what?
staff room was really eerie-looking when i walk in this morning.
lights off, not a single soul in.
quickly, yours truly went to the lounge room.
switch the lights & a/c on, trying to stay cool. =)
how great it is to have a friend here, sighs.

P.S i'm glad Sai Fyza returned safe & sound, and in one piece.
=)

2009-03-16T13:32:00.009+08:00

i want these!
somebody please get for me.
=)

2009-03-15T18:18:00.002+08:00

i'm pushing away ALL that is weakening me.
no use crying over spilled milk.
as of today, i'm gonna be the old me, IGNORANT.
no point being caring and nice if all i get is, BETRAYAL.
my heart is ... EMPTY.
can't even have any feelings due to some idiots that ruined my life.
no, not ruined.
turned my life UPSIDE DOWN.
whats the point of living anyways?
to destroy people's life?
to make their life HELL?
WHAT IS IT??

do not ask me whats wrong 'cause i won't entertain that sort of questions.
i see no point in pouring out to people, useless.
people say that its not good to bottled things up.
but to me, its FAR more better than pouring it out.
at least, people won't criticize or gossip about you.
better to keep things to your OWN self.
i guess being lonely is the best way to distance myself from others that's trying to destroy me.
.
.
.
.
.
yes, LONELINESS is my life right now.

2009-03-13T22:32:00.003+08:00

life, has nothing left for me.
feeling empty inside.
what's there for me anyways?
i've destroyed myself, emotionally.
hate myself, as of right now.
what's done, can't be undone.
life has to go on, no matter what.

kept on waiting.
but sorry, i'm DONE waiting.
not worth it.
do what you have to do.
and please, do it RIGHT this time round.
ask your heart, your mind, your soul.
be serious ONCE in your life.

D.A.M.A.G.E.D

2009-03-13T08:58:00.002+08:00

am in school.
staff room is so quiet.
meet-the-parent session today.
so that explain the quietness.

just open my formal email.
got a reply from MOE, yippee!
=))
but not confirmed yet.
my application is still under consideration till 25 March.
but have to attend the seminar on 28 March.
*babes, pls do pray for me k!

hmm, i gotta say.
haven't heard from Cicak quite a while.
wonder what is he up to.
*thinking ...

Mr Tall?
been sms-ing every day.
meet up? NOPE.
well, doesn't matter anyways.

oh, i wanna do hair extension! >_<
out of sudden, i'm longing for a longg, wavy hair.
gatal kan aku ni, dulu nak sngt rambut pendek, skrg nak panjang hair pulak ...
*TCC babes, what do girls think?

P.S i'm open to suggestions, good or bad =)

2009-03-10T17:53:00.002+08:00

on MC today.
voice totally gone.
payment? $14.80
ggrrr...

met up with mom at Causeway Point.
treat her to Pizza Hut, suker die eh!
then, went shopping.
bought undies and bag for yours truly.
bought a makcik-makcik dress for mom.
pulak tu, nak pilih kaler pink jer ...

after that, window-shopped here and there.
nearly 5.30pm, headed home.
that lil bro of mine coming back from school.
and right now, am waiting patiently for Sai Fyza to msg me.
.......

*Nessa, thanks for the advices that you gave me. will keep that in mind =)

2009-03-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

i'm gonna make it short and brief.

[Saturday, 07.03.09]
went to Tampines Mall, met up with Yati and Wan.
actually, only Yati and me but somehow along the way,
just thought of Wan and msged him asking him to come down.
so, the 3 of us again.
just like the ol' days. =)
dinner at Pastamania, so packed that i can't breathed.
really! damn packed sia.
after that, went Century Square.
i bought a dress at Sheer Romance.(buat DOSA lagik aku!)
window-shopped here and there.
then lepak at Starbucks.
till midnight, i think.
then we went our separate ways.

[Sunday, 08.03.09]
my aunt's birthday celebration.
2 of them, actually.
bought for them cake and BONIA wallet each.
my mom baked marble cake for the occasion.
so did my 2 birthday women. =)
Wak Tini - nasi briyani
Wak Yah - tulang (power dok...)
then we watched hindustan, can't remember the title but SRK act in the movie.
around 8pm, home sweet home.

tmr is M-O-N-D-A-Y.
urghh!
ciao lahh.

2009-03-07T02:15:00.002+08:00

just woken up.
from a very deep sleep, i guess.
supposedly, going to bake lasagne at SyA's house.
am excited about that,
but sleepyness ruined my mood.
* sorry babes, can't make it today =(

what shall i update about?
my work?
my wants/cravings?
my feelings?

WORK
today, i didn't have much to do.
just printings, laminates, staplings etc.
am still waiting for Daryl to loan me a laptop/PC.
kept going to the comp lab which is at the 4th level, tired.
basically, my work is easy.
but the pay is NOT!

WANTS/CRAVINGS
i have so many wants for 2009 that i jot it down in my book. =)
cable car ride, dvd player, photoshoot makeover, blue toshiba laptop and the list goes on.
cravings so far?
having choc fondue!
well, anything that's got to do with chocs.
oh ya, popiah at joo chiat complex pls!
been craving for that for so longg.

FEELINGS
there are certain feelings that's bothering me up till this moment.
my true feelings about both of them.

#1 - i ask him to move on but somehow deep inside my heart, i don't want him to. after all, he's the only man that knows me inside out. close friend, maybe?

#2 - am i just a sister/friend/if-i'm-bored-i'll-meet-you-up kind of person? i don't know why, but i got the feeling that he's not serious. or maybe, i'm just being paranoid. yes, he says that he WILL love me but, i'm not convince. anyway, ACTIONS speaks louder than WORDS.

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.
.
.
.

mixed feelings.

2009-03-04T23:41:00.002+08:00

[Tuesday, 03.03.09]
work, as usual.
laid-back.
then received a message from SyA, wants to have dinner at Causeway Point.
her mom didn't cook.
Farna, Nessa, Leena, Sya - 4/6 of TCC babes
firstly, yours truly & SyA went KFC.
fill our stomach, too hungry already. >_<
then, Farna came.
followed by Nessa.
after dinner, Nessa wanted to find her work shoes.
so we walk around finding all the shoe store that we can find.
decided, Charles & Keith.
btw, i really am gonna get those comfy sandal.
alahh, those yg ade 3 colour tu.
red, blue & black lahh ...
bought the shoes, headed to Gelare.
yup, half-priced waffles! i loike ...
took pics, giggled, laughed, talked etc.
went home around 10pm, i guess.
whatever it is, i am so happy that TCC gatherings are back =)

[Wednesday, 04.03.09]
met Sai Fyza straightaway after work.
had to rush, wudn't want the rain to pour.
met her at Woodlands platform, headed to Jurong Point.
actually to collect my top, she accompanied.
then had dinner at McD, double cheeseburger meal.
yum-yum! >_<
after that, shopped.
supposedly to window-shop ONLY,
but somehow i just can't stop buying clothes.
heheh!
bought a red top @ Vogue.
only $10 sia, so i take the chance lor.
usual price is $27 tau, da kire murah giler sak tuu!!
felt tired, headed home.
showered, ironed done.
and now,
GOOD NIGHT my lovelies =)

2009-03-03T13:48:00.003+08:00

17 Ways To Fabulise Your Life

1. Update your wardrobe
2. Try something new
3. Put yourself out there
4. Just SMILE! =)
5. Be good to yourself
6. Be kind to others
7. Stay positive, no matter what
8. Improve your life
9. Get a new look
10. Work on your connections. SOCIALISE!
11. Stay focused on your dreams
12. Open your mind
13. Listen to your body
14. Be passionate about life
15. Stay true to yourself. BE YOURSELF!
16. Do everything with confidence
17. Choose GOOD role models

2009-03-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

HE WENT M-I-A !!!

UNACCEPTABLE !!

2009-03-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

wow, i'm at home on a SUNDAY.
which is like,
a have-to-go-out-no-matter-what day?
no plans lahh, what to do ...

have been sneezing away since morning.
am just afraid my flu would come back.
ahh, pls no!
watched PP10 on Friday, bored.
no excitement whatsoever.
how come Aaron Aziz can be the host?
he's like, NOT the host type lahh.
lagik bagus Suhaimi sey...

tmr's MONDAY.
zZzZzZz ...
can fast forward to Friday pls?
i still need the weekend break eh ...
oh, payday is on SAT =)
double yeay-ness for me!

ciao lahh.

2009-02-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

psst!
i have a new hobby.
.
.
.
.
.
BLOGSHOP-ING!
=)

2009-02-26T10:41:00.002+08:00

was down with fever & flu yesterday.
couldn't open my bloody eyes, took MC.
slept through the day.

got a shocking & sad news from Mr Tall.
his aunt from KL passed away.
innalillah...

in school now.
uploading the P1s video from the learning journey.
update again, soon.

2009-02-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

work was hectic.
didn't even have a min of rest.
now my body is aching everywhere.

i was called by the VP.
he told me about this Allied Educators program
and wants me to take this up,
if i'm thinking of working in this work of line
for a longg period of time.

went to the website,
and glad to say i was pretty interested.
NOT 'CAUSE OF THE PAY HOKAY!
i see this as a golden opportunity for me to upgrade myself.
even my parents want me to grab this chance.

if you wanna know more, click here.

2009-02-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

OH MY!
abg S already confessed.
his true feelings.
and i'm like, speechless.
what else am i supposed to say?

he msged, "i will love u! don't u worry about it ok dear?"
yours truly replied, "........."

and now,
i'm thinking,
what about cicak?

oh god, help me ...

2009-02-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

had a reallyy occupied day.
work kept coming non-stop.
whoosh,whoosh~!

1st day of the women cycle.
menstrual cramp, a must.
'cause of that, didn't have a proper lunch.
urghh!

yeay-ness, tmr's SATURDAY!
meaning: rest & relaxation day.
or for short, ME day =)
parents want me to go JB.
my reply? definitely N-O.
kalau pegi balek siang takpe, ni sampai ke mlm.
kalau boleh nak tido sane skali.

so, for tmr [21.02.09]:-
1. clean the house
2. re-organize my wardrobe, vanity table etc.
3. manage my clothings - AWAY / STAY
same goes for my mountain of bags. Yikes!

ok, this is random.
i want to take cable car ride!
=))

ciao.

2009-02-19T18:28:00.004+08:00

just got back from work,
mom have to frustrate me.
sheesh!

ran into my sec sch teacher,
on my way hm.
told her what & where i'm working,
how i felt when those naughty kids wudn't listen to a thing i say.
i mean,
this was the teacher that i was extremely mean to.
really!
i called her names, really rude names fyi.
that was like what?
sec 1 or 2?
can't remember though.
baru nak naik katekan, so act minah2 la. hahah!

yea, tmr's FRIDAY!
the last weekday of the week.
what am i gonna wear?
hmmm...

ciao.

2009-02-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

ok,
i'm gonna make it short and brief.

1. someone doesn't like that self-shot piece i've put up here.
Blueks! =)
2. Tuesday - had a really bad migraine since afternoon.
out of sudden, actually.
3. tmr going on a trip to HarbourFront, with the P1s.
must remember bring cam.
4. GST CREDIT !!!!!
=)))))

ciao.

2009-02-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

ONCE AGAIN, SKIN'S CHANGED!
i'm loving it =))

2009-02-16T18:29:00.004+08:00

just came back from work.
super tired, extreme.
eyes are droopy at this right moment.
*yawn

today,
time flies so the fast.
like Superman. heh!
was busy all day.
had a quick lunch, ZzZz after.

nothing to update actually.
no plans for the week.
OH YAH!
Happy 22nd Birthday Yati! =)

2009-02-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

this goes out to that BIG BRO of mine.

-----------------------------------------------------

1st of all, mine your own damn business!
don't try to act the role of "big brother" to me
'cause you've NEVER act it since, forever.

i don't need your approval to go out with anyone

& so do you.

so what if i wanna date cicak?
so what if i wanna date abg s?
that's my damn business!

you jolly well go on with your OWN business
& stop interfering mine!
i don't need your CARE & CONCERN at all.

DAMN, JUST STOP IT!!

2009-02-13T21:48:00.002+08:00

yes, changed skin again.
my hobby, haha!

today,
i gotta say,
work was damn tiring to the max.
am - had to bring the kids up the comp lab, do some reading trial via intranet.
pm - supplementary class, taught them English.
nearing 5pm - had to take still images for mon's presentation. CROSSING THE ROAD, THE CORRECT WAY.
wth!
and i tell you, the weather was super super hot.
really sia.
knock off at 5.30pm, met Sai Fyza at Causeway Point.
accompany her buy birthday prezzie for the bf's lil sis.
reached home at about 8pm.

i'm aching everywhere.
fatigue.
ciao lah.

*yawn ....

2009-02-12T23:00:00.001+08:00

cicak sound me, again.
3 times.
actually.
i gave a firm NO.
told him to stay as friends, for now.
if i can wait, why can't he?

2009-02-12T15:09:00.002+08:00

in school right now.
my body aching everywhere.
went ZOO earlier on, greatness =)
get to see the White Tiger.grrr!
this is the 2nd time i went to ZOO.
seriously.
next up, NIGHT SAFARI ANYONE?

really sleepy sia.
feels like i just wanna lie down here,
in the comp lab.
with the a/c on full blast.
whee~!

ok, update ltr k.

2009-02-11T19:59:00.003+08:00

i hate papercuts. urgh!
you know why?
'cause they're the most painful cuts, for me.
especially those small tenny-weeny cuts.
saket mcm nak mampos siak...

work was tiring.
had to go up and down several times.
thank goodness there's lift.
had to charge video cam, test it out.
tmr going on a field trip with the P2s.
venue: ZOO!
yay-ness, gonna bring my cam along. =)
then on 19/2, to HarbourFront.
with the P1s.
i must say, its gonna be pretty interesting.
hmmm ...

"Kalau lin pilih cicak, die bodo."
my Sai's mom said that.
i was shocked, really.
but, i know her mom's concern about me.
she's afraid he will treat me the same way as before if i choose him.
but thought otherwise about Abg S =)
nvrmind, i can date around since i'm single.

i wanna watch UNDERWORLD:RISE OF THE LYCANS.
but no cash liao. *boohoo!
i just love vampires, don't know why.
NOT since i watched TWILIGHT eh ...

arghh ...
muscle cramp.
gonna go and lie down.

ciao.

2009-02-10T00:50:00.002+08:00

RULES:
--> Pick your birth month.
--> ~~Strike out~~ anything that doesn't apply to you.
--> Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you.
--> Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months.
--> Tag 5 people.

[SAI FYZA] [FARNA] [SYA] [NESSA] [DEE]

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. {Easily hurt but takes long to recover.} --> this is SO true.
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AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
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DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

2009-02-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

is this some kind of a game or something?
are you trying to play tricks on me?
WHY THE FUCK NOW?

after all those waiting,
when i've FINALLY decided to MOVE ON,
why must you come back to me?
AT THIS FUCKING MOMENT?

what are you trying to do?
why must you torture my feelings again?
please, let me go.

whatever it is, be happy for me.
as i did when you were with HER.
find your happiness, there's many out there.
lastly, I'M REALLY SORRY.

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work was okay.
working on the intranet, did some printings.
kinda laid-back, i'd say.

one of the teachers want me to follow them on a trip to Harbourfront next Thurs.
woohoo, shiokness =)
get to sit on school bus, after so many years.
heheh!
i miss those school days, hokay.

my folks got back from kelantan around 3am.
mom bought me a Chanel shades & Nike shirt.
coolness =)
they're already planning of going there again next month.
this time, i'm tagging along!

got a pile of clean laundry ready for me to fold.
damn, can't u do it for me mom? *sigh

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oh ya,
today is Sai Fyza's last paper.
all the best to you Sai =)
hope you pass, insya allah.

ciao.

2009-02-08T14:34:00.003+08:00

so, yesterday i wasn't really stuck at home.
went out to eat near midnight.
with abg S =)
adam rd.
me;mutton chop abg S;nasi pattaya
we talked, giggled, stared etc.
then he send me home around 2+am.

so today, i am stuck at home.
folks coming home today, but at night.
gonna watch dvds.
so i won't fall asleep, heh.

ciao.

2009-02-07T18:39:00.001+08:00

i'm stuck at home.

nowhere to go.

everybody's out.

urgh!

ciao.

2009-02-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

oh well.
parents not at home. again.
till sunday, i'm gonna be all alone.

actually, tonight we're gonna watch UNDERWORLD:RISE OF THE LYCANS.
*we = abg S + me =)
but he called in the evening, had to cancel it since he's way tired.
hampa hati ku tau ...
but its ok, i dun mind.
really? hmm ..
maybe tmr night, perhaps. =)

so right now, just IM-ing away.
waiting for Sai Fyza online.
maner ajer budak ni pegi tau ...

work was, okay.
was called by VP, had a brief discussion.
mon will start serious work, busy next week.
what with upcoming tests & all.
teacher aid, huh!
*i won't complain k...

lalalalalala *singing lifelessly
what a life, boredom.
haiz!

ciao.

2009-02-04T22:24:00.004+08:00

i'm super duper tired today.
work was never-ending.
received 1 batch of worksheets after another after another & so forth.
my hands & body are aching terribly.
mummy, pls can u gimme a massage?

got to relief one of the P1 class, soo cute those kids =)
had to be a firm teacher in order for them to be quiet.
can't believe my ears when they called me "TEACHER" ...
but nevertheless, it was quite an experience.

after work, met up with Abg S =)
will not reveal his name, for now.
what i can say is, we've known each other since i was a ~~teenager~~kid.
it was really fun meeting up with him after so long.
and i meant realllyyyy long ok.

met up at CT Hall, went Marina Square since it rains.
sight-seeing for a while.
talked about the zaman emas. heh.
supposedly, we were to watch a movie but Ong Bak II wasn't on the list so we just cruising around the mall.
the funny thing was, i get butterflies in my stomach when i was with him.
i mean, am i having feelings for this guy?
like, reallyy.
*figuring out myself ...

around 8.30pm, he sent me home.
and he even BOUGHT a helmet today itself just for me!
u know what he said? "i beli helmet so senang kalau kiter nak keluar samer2 nanti"
get the picture?
oh btw, he rides.

he took a long way route to send me home, just for fun.
arrived at 9pm under my block, sit for a while.
then, home.

ciao.

2009-02-03T19:08:00.002+08:00

nothing much to say about today.
woke up at 6.15am, showered.
outta hse by 7.10am.
reached AMK at 7.30am, then 10-mins walk.

wasn't much work to do in the morning.
received a pile of worksheets by the end of the day, ugh.
my hands are cramp due to those stapling of worksheets.

i need food in my stomach now.

ciao.

2009-02-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

1st day at work?
erm, quite interesting plus fun.
those cute lil' ones, raising their hands with that innocent face.
its actually fun working around kids, i assume.
can't say much though, just started today.
this thurs going to the ZOO =)
gonna bring my camera along.

oh btw, i'm a teacher aid.
at teck ghee pri, AMK area.

ciao.

2009-01-28T12:52:00.002+08:00

First & foremost,
my PC is BACK IN BUSINESS =)
its kinda like, half of the burden has been lifted up...
sort of, heh

so i guess, i'm glued to my seat every single not working day
but my speakers not working, wtf.
i need music to ease my mind..ugh!
daddy, can i have $$ to buy speakers?

To Whom It May Concern
1st of all, it was ALL MY FAULT ok?
i dun wish to argue anymore about it & neither do u, i assumed.
and i dun want this "argument" to go on & spoil the friendship between us.
so, whatever.

ciao.

2009-01-21T23:13:00.003+08:00

i'm going CLUBBING this Sat, 24th.

*can you believe it?

2008-12-23T10:34:00.005+08:00

i am sooo in lurve with EDWARD CULLEN
he is my fantasy boyfriend at the moment.
*drools about him every second of my breath

i know this sounds super crazy but i've watched Twilight for 4 times already.
giler or what ...
watch it thrice with my cousin; once with BFF.
and i'm gonna watch it again very soon ...

Christmas around the corner and i don't have any plans yet.
parents going Pahang the next day till Sunday.
will be alone at home *take note TCC gals!

New Year's eve?
Ryanna Karissa's 1st birthday.
so the family wants to do a picnic in the morning & watch fireworks at night.
thats what i heard uh, not confirm yet.

here's the lurve of my dreams ...

EDWARD CULLEN !!

my fave vampire movie of the year

* i wish for EDWARD CULLEN on new year's eve pls!

2008-12-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

i hereby announced that my relationship with Acit is over, in good terms.
well, we both agreed that its better to be "just friends" rather than being more than friends.
ok i admit, my friends do kept on advising me especially that BFF of mine *heheh!
asking me to get over him!
and i'm proud to say that i'm SINGLE!

My Goals for 2009:
1. get a job (!!)
2. car license pls!
3. go on a family trip to Bangkok with my savings ...
4. go clubbing on my birthday itself *TCC-take note!
5. own a car - Hyundai Getz maybe ... berangan jauh-jauh ah lin!

Ryanna's 1st birthday is around the corner
whats best, her's is the eve of new year!
isn't that cool or what ...

bye lah, gonna watch tv

2008-12-07T02:48:00.002+08:00

Hi ppl :)
as you can see, i've changed the skin.
and right now, i'll update a little about whats up with my life.

1st of all, i'm currently unemployed(!!)
just got terminated a few weeks back from OCBC 'cause cudn't hit baseline.
looking frantically for a job right now (OH NO!!)
really, how am i gonna give my mom $$ if i don't have a job right?

about my social life?
been going out with the TCC gals.
still lepak-ing with BFF (heheh!)
bf? hmm...
i'll just leave it to you ppl to guess lor.

dunno what else to update actually.
'cause right now my mind's telling me to SLEEP (!!!!)
btw, i'm at fyza's at this very minute.. 2.55am
doing my resume and tryin' to update my stuffs etc
alright lah, gotta go home.

toodles!

*SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA to all muslims out there, in advance :-)

2008-08-21T17:31:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!
for now only, hehe =)

lets update on myself k.
currently, i'm working at ALDO@Vivo but i'm resigning by the end of the month.
why?
simple. THE MANAGEMENT.
dats all i can say about it.
*for those who know, hush2 pls!

i'm looking for work right at this very moment.
in a week's time its puasa.
then hari raya.
ARGHH!!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

wah, i'm like money-faced sia.
but seriously, i rreeeaaalllllyyyy need $$, damn it.

well, bye for now.
will update NOT so soon.

2008-02-19T15:54:00.002+08:00

so bored, Zzzz.
had MDP revision for tmr's class test then we do our own things.
right now, i'm playing tetris as well as finding hairstyles.
you see, i wanna cut my hair but my HIM and mom tak kasi lah.
thought of having shoulder-length or my previous style like victoria beckham.
then again, mcm sayang pulak nak gunting rambut yg dah panjang nie.
hmms...

FYP is finally finishing.
left the presentation.
oh god!

Sai Fyza wanted me to accompany her to watch eqa's performing at esplanade.
so i guess tmr most probably i can accompany her as i finish early around 12pm.
then on 8 march, my parents going Taiping for soccer.
have to sleepover at my aunt's place.
i want to chill at my own house lahh.

*can i not sleepover there mommy?

2008-02-05T14:24:00.000+08:00

F.Y.P
and all sorts of projects...
ARGHH!!!!
*i want to graduate immediately pls!

and btw Sai Fyza, i'm really stress out with projects and such.
so sorry i didn't contact you for quite some time.
my 1st pay i will definitely belanje you k?
=)

have to submit the finished dvd by tomorrow. shit!
then by 15 feb, submit the report and poster. damn shit!

i didn't even have time to shop or have my me-time.
fortunately, CNY is a day ahead.
and i'm going KL with my parents and relatives.
gonna enjoy & shop all i want.
but still, we haven't book any hotels yet.
UH-OH!

anyways, i got a shocking news from someone close to me.
i really can't believe it, truly.
i mean, how can that happened?
whatever it is, i really can't accept it.
so sorry to that someone...

*14 feb, what am i gonna do with you?

2008-01-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

i'm SICK!
ARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-16T17:06:00.000+08:00

ok.
i change the skin AGAIN.
definitely(i hope so!) this skin is pleasant-looking.

i'll blog some other time k.
gotta go off now.
toodles!

2008-01-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

alright.
i'm in school, doing mdp.
have to finish jobsheet 1 & 2 by today.
whattheheck.

last sunday was my uncle's birthday.
and i totally forgot about it 'cause was really busy with the vid project.
last saturday, went out to Bugis with Sai Fyza.
i bought a dress and long-sleeved top.
had wanted to buy these really cute pumps but not enough cash.
damnit.

and you know what.
for the final semester, i get PINOY! as my IGV lecturer.
again, goddamnit!
the timetable changed too.
school is everyday; Mon-Fri.
but luckily, Mon and Tues starts in the afternoon.
thank goodness.

i betta log out now.
seems like winnie is fuming.
toodles!

bf, where is the sandal that i want?

2008-01-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

i hope i'm not too late to say HAPPY 2008 ;)
oh. my little newborn niece, RYANNA KARISSA, was born on 31st Dec '07.

& SCHOOL ALREADY STARTS. ARGHH!

2007-11-29T15:49:00.000+08:00

adam just been warded at NUH this afternoon.
diagnosed with lungs infection.
gosh, i was so surprised when Kak Ju msged me.
i'm worried sick.

*hoping that everything's gonna be ok.

2007-11-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

i know i kept changing the skin but thats 'cause i want a skin that really suits my personality.
sort of colourful, preppy etc.
and i've got it! ;-)
i can say that i'm happy with the present skin, for now.

holidays on the 15th dec.
and i intend to go for the BORDERS.
hopefully, i got the job.
insyallah.

i really sympathize with my bestie.
she have gone through a really tough time this year.
with her family, current bf & sometimes me.
all i could give to her is only my fullest support & encouragement.
and i hope she read this entry.

bf and me?
we're still the same, old us.
joking and fighting here and there.
gonna be our 8th month this coming 24th.
and i do hope this relationship will last.
ok Bie?

my parents are going to KL on 15th dec.
and guess what?
i'm not tagging along. haha!
my aunt & uncle, with my atuk is going too.
gosh, i can't believe that my atuk, finally is reuniting with us.
i got to know that he called my dad recently and they met at Harbourfront, with my mom shaking all over 'cause she didn't expect it to happen.
i myself, haven't see my atuk.
i wonder if he can recognize me.

right now, i'm actually supposed to finish up my IGV mini project.
but unfortunately, Yoda deleted my file in the thumbdrive.
and luckily, i saved another file on the computer itself.
thank goodness!

*mommy, i want Dorothy Perkins top please!

2007-11-20T10:45:00.000+08:00

BORDERS ...
here i come!

2007-11-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

had to change the skin.
you know why?
cause i self-deleted the whole goddamn template.
my links; poof.
my profile; poof.
my likes & dislikes; poof.
shithead me.

freezing in this lab.
class ends at 6pm.
wondering about yesterday.
still in shock, by the way.
and the worst thing is, it came from my closed ones.
but, shit happens.
life still has to go on, right?

2007-10-30T11:36:00.000+08:00

i think i'm gonna learn to cook.
gotta start early, you know :-)

28 oct [sunday], jalan rayer with my bf & his friends.
from 12pm till 2am.
my dad was quite pissed, of course.
my mom? she's ok.
it was jalan rayer for pete's sake.
& we have like, 18-20 people including 4 couples.
so yeah, i think its reasonable to be home at 2am.
whatever it is, sorry mom & dad ;-)

because of that, i was unable to wake up the next morning for school.
but went Causeway Point with Sai Fyza.
had lunch at Gelare which totaled $26.60.
Fyza's meal; waffle with ice-cream & iced lemon tea
my meal; banana split basket & iced lemon tea
expensive, kan?

ooh, someone is missing someone.
i wonder who is that someone.
right, Sai? :-)

*bf, i want gladiator sandals from Charles & Keith can? ;-)

2007-10-24T13:40:00.000+08:00

i'm hoping everything's gonna be back to normal for her.
didn't expect something shocking to happen.
truly unexpectant.
have a little faith & patience ok.

didn't meet with my bf for 3 days now.
missing him so much.
hehe :-)

for school, timetable is very light.
no school for friday. a lesson on monday. 2 days of going home at 2pm.
like, how cool is that?
but, final project is nasty.
by 31 oct have to submit the script.
and that is, a week from today.
urgh!

my mom's getting impatient every single day that goes by.
she can't afford to take care little adam anymore.
what's with the depression thing going on & financial-wise.
i just can't wait to finish school & start working.
so that mom would nag no more & just smile from ear to ear when she receive my pay.
i wonder when...

i'll start saving ok, mommy?

2007-10-24T13:09:00.000+08:00